Friday, December 18, 2009
{ Friday, December 18, 2009 }
; Even you were a lie
I`m feeling a little weird .
Like ever since i rebonded my hair , i`v been getting '' oh damn hot'' all the way .
But it feels so shitty , like when i had curls u couldn't`t notice me ? , There are those who still love me like how they used to , that is why i don't like people who judge , it`s so irritating .
Well tomorrow is the big day !
Booms - N level Results , we all know i ain't gg to do well , so best be prepared.
I know even though i`m not gg to pass , i still am sad that mom and dad will be hurt.
Sighs , I`m sorry mom and dad .
It`s so hard for me to ever make u guys proud of me , it`s like i`v been a disappointment to you ever since birth , and i know that someday you`ll be proud of me (:
You changed up your make up your DNA .
i can`t recognise you`r a stranger to me.
Get me out of here , cause my eyes are burning from these silly tears.
Someone get me out of this place.
Your heart is so cold and now i`m freezing.
It`s so hard to understand you , why u being so difficult to be with , to love ?
U say you like me , but you simply don`t show it , nor do you even bother to TRY and show it either. I don`t know what your motive is , breaking me ? , trying to tell me that i can only remain miserable my whole life? , I for one thought u were so different , i thought u were better then the others , but now it seems you are just the same , you are no different , i can`t see any difference at all.
I wish i could rip out a page of my memory.
Can`t wait for me to get through this stage.
Patience running out , i`m having nightmares.
This love is taking all of my energy .
Such a mystery when he`s here with me.
This ain't how we were suppose to be.
Why did you change so much ? , it`s killing me to think we can be the same , it`s killing me to even think we could be like before.
It kills me to think you were the person i thought i once knew.
You aren`t the person i first knew , Wake up i know you are somewhere in this disguise.
Goodbye , and i really hope you bother changing.
Not cause i asked you to , cause you want to.
See the change in yourself and you`ll know.
Love ,
SharenCAUR!
; Even you were a lie